I was on Facebook this morning and I saw a quote by CS Lewis that struck me. It was along the lines of “You are being tested by God not because he doesn’t know the love you have in you, but so that you will know it.” I’m paraphrasing, but that was the message.
And it struck me as true.
My book launched yesterday. It didn’t go great. But it went. My lovely friend Ahsoka wrote a great review that encouraged me unexpectedly. I really needed the encouragement too. It lifted me out of … not a funk. But out of a place of uncertainty.
See, I have a weird relationship with Labor Day. Significant things have begun in my life on Labor Day weekend. Big things. I didn’t realize that the book launch was scheduled for Labor Day weekend when I scheduled it. But it figures. I’ve had in my head how things would go. Didn’t happen. It shook me, but I rolled with it. Trust God with this. And I do. I’m sure He doesn’t want me thinking I have done anything on my own. I can’t. I know that. I hoped for a good launch. It went cattywampus.
And then I saw the CS Lewis quote this morning. Like a hug. That was really cool.
Anyhow, my book is out there now. Because of glitches and all I don’t know if anyone has read it yet. But it’s ok. My job is to show up and do the work. It’s His job to use it. But how helpful it is to know He’s showing me how far I’ve come. Humbling, too.
The truth is, the story will strike different people different ways and how it is received isn’t mine. It’s a Nanny McPhee situation. I trust Him with it.